i see your body
your everything
i see my desire
i devour

but i don't see
beyond your flesh
i don't see what
drove you to
this

i see my lust
and the means
to an ugly end
i'm unfocused
breathe
focus

i know who
you are
a daughter
a sister
a lover

i see what
i've become
selfish
weak
a sinner

i walk away
and pray
for forgiveness
for love
for strength

i walk away
and i die
to rise again
anew
because
i don't want
to hear
a father's cry