lusts

we don't have needs
we just have lusts
i've sown no seeds
and now i'll return to dust
my eyes, plucked
my hands, cut
no we don't have needs
we just have lusts

oh, God i know i'm wrong
oh, i fell and now you're gone
oh, how can i pay back what i owe?
oh, i fell, i should have known
oh, how can i atone?
oh, i've reaped what i've sown
you can write my sins on my tombstone
you know there's nothing good in my bones
i hope you can make good of my soul

foundation

pull me apart
brick by crumbling
brick.

i won't fall
i promise
i won't fall

let the storms
come and
wash away
what i thought
i believed

i won't fall
i promise
i won't fall

let the winds
blow and tear
me down
i am built on
my good deeds
so

i won't fall
i promise
i won't fall

my house
has fallen
and i've
found that
my foundations
were built on
sand

i will fall
i promise
i will fall

seasons

seasons come and go.
seasons change into another.
people come and go,
some say we don't, that
we just change into another.

like leaves in fall and spring
we change colors, prettiest
as we near our end, we all
fall and become the ground
for others to grow in.

as the sun shines on
the ocean, we sparkle, we
glimmer, and enjoy our
glorious days. but we
will rise above as vapors
in the wind, like ghosts
above the earth, but
below the heavens
with nowhere to go.

but we will continue to rise
towards the Son, to become
a part of the clouds, to fill
them up until they become
heavy with gray. and we will
rain down upon the earth
so more trees can spring
and resurrect to life.

the new leaves will take in the bad
and breathe out good wind.
at the same time the wind
blows away decay in the fall,
but carries life to the flowers
in the spring. the wind carries
vapors above the earth and
towards the Son as the Spirit
so the cycle may continue its end.
believe in love or die in sin.

forgive/forget

can i move on from this?
can i forgive and forget?
or will i forgive to forget
or forget to forgive?

are they one and the same
or steps toward some
recovery? if i forget
won't i do it again,
if i forgive won't i
forget the lesson?

forgive/forget
forgive/forget
forgive/forget
forgive/forget
forgive/forget
forgive/forget
forgive/forget

if i sin for the 8th
time, will you still
forgive/forget
or have i reached
the limit?

is there any end to your
forgiveness or have i lost
count? i want to move on,
but echoes of my sins
still resound.

kiss/idle

it's all that's left
when you've given
your everything
to a fantasy

i gave it all away
to pictures in
a magazine,
videos on a
computer screen

i'm drained and
i'm on my way
out and all i wanted
was someone to
kiss goodnight.

* * *

i raised you up
and gave you praise.
you filled me for a
moment, nothing
gained.

i've learned that i can't
fill the void with you,
but you know that i'll
try again and again.

i felt for a moment,
but now i'm ice.
my wound feels numb,
but i'll scratch it until
it bleeds or until i can
feel it again. but you
don't care because you
don't feel at all.

i made you my idol,
but now i'm idle.